i thi...

i think i want a real journal. like, a book, with just blank pages. something that would be really private, that i could write anything in. i don't think i have any secrets. not of my own, at least. but when it's someone elses personal stuff, you don't just advertise it over the internet.

just woke up. ...

just woke up. don't really know what else to say. wow, ever since i got this journal i actually have mail sometimes when i come online. well, sorta. that's amazing.

i'm such a dor...

i'm such a dork, god. why do i ever open up my mouth?

i think i'v...

i think i've totally given up on how i appear to others, or maybe even caring for my physical self all together. i don't really see the point of it. i don't want to be desireable to anyone who wouldn't like me just for who i am, anyway. i mean, not that i am the slightest bit desireable to other people, but i don't see any point in trying to be for anyone that wouldn't love me for who i am despite my appearance however awful it may be. and that's lilke, first impressions. why give a good first impression, when if you are in a long lasting relationship with the person they will find out exactly who you are anyway? if someone doesn't like exactly who i am, i would feel more secure knowing it from the start. okay...i'm just rambling now. so i'll shut up.

today is a ne...

today is a new day. full of opportunity. and endless possibilities. i'm just ecstatic, can't you tell.

i sh...

i should really get a life. i'm always on the internet. when is this long long day ever going to come to an end? maybe i should read or something. okay. byebye now.

i am talkin...

i am talking to sara on yahoo messenger. yay. she is so nice she is my best friend in the whole world. he he he okay really i guess heather is but she hasn't called me all day so for now i'm just gonna say sara. =P i feel really bad though about not getting her book back to her. ah. i suck.

ugh. my dad just ...

ugh. my dad just called, from wherever the fuck he is. and on my phone line for some reason. i think heather is like at that umm thing with keith. i am not in a very good mood.